Good bye, Goody

A young woman lost to cervical cancer. A mother of two, desperate to provide a better future for her young sons. 

Are things getting better?

I have not shaved, or applied any of those cream on the area near my upper lips for a few months.  Those hair on my legs and hands seems to grow more slowly too? Are things getting better, or am I getting oblivious to all these things? 

My menses was here last week. Really heavy. Very tired, but I was actually happy. Can you believe it? Happy that my menses were here despite the pain? I can remember how I used to wish that I will never have another menstruation when I was younger, and things were normal. How many girls out there wish their monthly sign of womanhood away?

The effect of hormone is really significant. During that week, I was hungry all the time. And then, I had no apetite at all. These few days, I am having a really strong craving for sugar and carbohydrate. Sigh. I am really worried about my weight not.