It is winter but I have got blubber!

It is (almost) winter, and it gets dark so early and so quickly. The mornings and chilly, and the evenings are bleak....After all, I am  just human, and I am a mammal. Like the polar bears, I fatten myself up in the autumn and then go into the hibernation.

That sounds like a normal complain about the weather, but it is is a hidden message telling you why I am not exercising. For the past few days, we girls gather around the mini cafeteria, dip our hands into the cookie jars and moan about it. What a perfect excuse to eat and not work out!

It is so easy to get carried away. As long as I stay away from the weighing scale, it is difficult to tell if I put on more weight, under the thick layers of winter clothings. Yes, it is winter, but I have got blubber. I can still go out and walk as long as it is not snowing. It is cold, yes, but the cold may burn extra calories for me!  My only excuse is the lack of a proper jacket for walks in the winter, but that is now solved with my latest online spree.

That winter jacket looks lovely, and would be perfect for walks. I think i should stop this habit..If I shop, i should head to the stores!

Finding courage and more knowledge

I thought I have read everything I can about PCOS and I just realised that I did not! I have been trying to find out as much information about PCOS as possible. 


Since it is Friday, I  had a shopping trip to Amazon ( & Amazon is giving away free delivery!) and out of curiousity, searched for PCOS book and chose the "Best seller" link. To my surprise, Taking Charge of Your Fertility: The Definitive Guide to Natural Birth Control, Pregnancy Achievement and Reproductive Wealth turned out to be the best seller!  I have always thought that it is the The Ultimate PCOS Handbook!

This book has 215 reviews and 202 out of 215 (94%) was 5 stars!  I ordered it straight away!  The reviews on this page is worth a read. There are so many women who claimed that after reading this book, they got pregnant or start ovulating again. Wow, sounds like a fertility goddess rather than a book to me. PCOS info I must know!


(In contrast, The Ultimate PCOS Handbook: Lose Weight, Boost Fertility, Clear Skin and Restore Self-esteem, one of the supposedly best sellers, only had 12 reviews!)

Asking for help about infertility is difficult!

I am still delaying making an appointment with the doctor.


It is really weird. I feel as if I do not deserve to ask for help. How will I answer if he asks me "what have you tried"? That will invariably come down to eating less, exercising more --- weight loss.


Sigh... tried as hard as I could, but I have nothing to show. I feel like a naughty school kid who have not done my homework. Going to school and facing the music is gonna be hard. Aww


I know time is running out. I know. The longer I take to get help, the less time I have to conceive.


Am I alone? How many women with PCOS would delay asking help because they feel too embarassed, they do not deserve it, or because they put their hands into the cookie jar last night?